Dear God,

if i don't have you, ill die.
-Sean

I'm

Ready.

well put

Hi, Im Sean. Im with a global enterprise. We have branches in every country in the world. We have representatives in nearly every parliament and boardroom on earth. Were into motivation and behavior alteration. We run hospitals, feeding stations, crisis-pregnancy centers, universities, publishing houses, and nursing homes. We care for our clients from birth to death. We are into life insurance and fire insurance. We perform spiritual heart transplants. Our original Organizer owns all the real estate on earth plus an assortment of galaxies and constellations. He knows everything and lives everywhere. Our product is free for the asking. (Theres not enough money to buy it.) Our CEO was born in a hick town, worked as a carpenter, didnt own a home, was misunderstood by his family and hated by his enemies, walked on water, was condemned to death without a trial, and arose from the dead. I talk with him everyday.

-Max Lucardo

Striving

im striving
to be a man slow to speak and quick to listen
im striving
to be a man of soft words rather than rash ones
im striving
to never say "i cant" or "i quit"
im striving
to be a man who you can trust
im striving
to be a man you can believe in
im striving
to pay the cost i can never repay
im striving
to live pure in an impure world
im striving
to die so i can truely live
im striving im striving
to love you when you dont love me
im striving
to stay when i see no reason to
im striving im striving
to live like i know i should
im striving
to win the game we all secretly play
im striving im striving....

mai blogs

have been so stinkin depressing lately


thats about to change

=]

see...better already.

Work.

has been so difficult the last couple of days.
ive cried each of them.
i know its only a finger prick compared to some members of history.
but still.
being persecuted and singled out because i believe in something others dont.
and live for something others wont.
its hard.
to show people so much love and be hated for it nonetheless.
i dont know how He did it.
im supposed to consider it PURE joy.
but im having trouble even seeing through the darkness.
i suppose they're having trouble looking at the light though.
hmmm atleast i know my light is shining if people are trying to get me to turn it off.
yeah.
thats better.
=].

Lets Rant;

When faced with an unknowing, abyss of a decision, i tend to change my mind a lot. one moment lets do it, the next, absolutely not. i cant really always fathom the kind of feelings it takes for me to muster up the strength to just go ahead and..."live" as i would tend to label it, that is to simply not care about reaction of it, and just jump, head first, without light, boat or paddle, and see where you end up.

lately ive wanted to simply jump and not care but soon as i take a step toward the edge; what ifs show their ugly little faces and i cower out in fear of what was and what can be.or cant be.

maybe this is a life lesson, very slowly and not easily learned like id like to.
maybe if there was a subtle hint.


maybe if i just said it.

oh how life might, maybe, just...change.

allinall

this was a great week,
made a new friend or two.
got closer to some other ones.
actually really whole heartedly laughed in who knows how long
cooked for a few amazing people
and simply loved.

likeisaid...great week =]